Monday, August 17, 2009

Just got home from ECP with baby..
I seriously enjoyed it, until IT happened. Feel so lost and confused..
Like, so helpless and i cant do anything to help.
But i guess there's only so much i can do.. Im just gonna stick around, be there for her and listen to her, try to make it less painful for her. Yes it is a huge sacrifice, but since i've already started making it, why not continue.. It can reap good rewards.

To my baby.. you gotta stay strong, especially in the darkest times..
Im here for you and if you told me that theres a way to help you feel better, i'd do it.
I really wanna be the one to help you get over it and its not just getting over it..
I wanna have a good relationship with you and i want you to be happy.
I do constantly worry for you, even if i dont show it.
I may be jealous about it, but thats not the main motivation to why i wanna help.
My main motivation is simply just cause i love you and i cant bear to see you like this.

You may say you're used to it, but getting used to it wont solve the problem..
I understand you do need time and i'll just wait.
I just hope that my comments or certain views on this thing wont offend you or make you upset with me.
I only say them cause i think they would help you..
You might think that it doesnt and i shouldnt say them, but thats just me.
Its like how parents scold their kids or nag at them about some things, kids dont like them and think they're not good for them, but their parents really mean good.
Im not saying that what i say is the truth and the right thing to do, but its just how i feel it should be done.

I really hope you would understand my point of view..
Although we say take your time, slowly, bit by bit we will work this out, but obviously we want to get rid of it asap right.
So i wont sit back all the time and just let things happen and pretend i dont see anything.

Dont give up on the future and yourself k.
You're a smart girl and you have a good heart.
That's what's good about you that i see.
~This is for Eternity ♪ at 8:25 AM