Friday, August 21, 2009

"Im my own worst enemy!"

im starting to think that..
everyone's got a devil in them.. some hide really well, some surface whenever you're in shit. guess mine surfaced at the right time.. when im in deep shit.

missed another UT today. =.= fell back to sleep after i woke up. how nice.

im like, screwing with my own life now la. wtf. why why why..
life's a bitch, so's the devil in me. i hear him laughing and scoffing at me for being such a fool. over such a trival thing, i can screw up so many other more important things.. such a wuss..

"and you havent forgotten her have you? HAHA!"

see.. that's what he said the first thing i woke up. wtffff...
sighh.... "all's fair in love and war.." yeah right. bullshit. i'd fuck you upside down if you try to use that on me..

yesterday went out with james, nick and kw. pool and slack.
pangseh-ed nicole and shereen for them.
i know im at fault. if im still stuck up and not willing to admit, i wouldnt have put it up here. yeah, im hanging my shame up for everyone to see. cool huh..
happy now? im sorry, i know it sucks. my bad. what now? explanations wont count for nothing cause i know im in the wrong.. it's only happened once, so do i get another chance to prove and show my apologies? god knows..

yes i feel bad. my pool standard dropped the moment i told her i wasnt going. guess i cant pool or do anything when i've got something bugging me inside.

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someone please come save me.. dying inside and i cant hold out..
my defenses are low and my strength is weakening by the day..
i need something to pull me out of this dump.
my morale is dead, and soon i will be too.
death is taking over and im not holding it back much.
if only i could die now. how nice that would be..
but i guess life wont let me do that.
~This is for Eternity ♪ at 3:29 PM