Wednesday, August 19, 2009

i just cant help it! i know saying this risks the fact that you might not talk to me about this again..
but i cant take it! i gotta rant! i hate it when you talk about him. i hate it when he treats you so badly. i hate it when you love him so much afterall he does to you. call it jealousy, call me an ass, call me unreasonable, but i hate it!
almost every song you send to me, i see a link of how you feel for him. you might say im thinking too much, but isnt it the truth? because of him, you listen to such songs, cause you're hurt, and these songs respond to your bleeding heart.
im hurt. im scared. im lonely. even though you care, its just not the same. not when he's in your heart.

i used to think of you a lot, but when i saw you couldnt forget him, i let you go.. and the next thing i knew, you were with someone else. so i just left without a word. i hope you understand that part.. now that we're talking again, i thought maybe i'd do something, maybe i could help out.. guess i was wrong. im such an ass.. useless useless ass. all i ever wanted was to see you happy again, and there's just nothing, no fucking thing i can do about this.

if love is blind, then why do i see you?! being blind isnt about seeing the wrong things, it's about not looking at all, but i see you, and i know what im seeing.. sigh.

my heart's wearing really really thin.. i know my friends are trying to hold it together for me, that includes you.. i know, i thank you guys, but is it really enough? how long more can i hold out? i really dont know. i've got a weak heart.

so frustrated. that's that. i dont wanna move on. but i dont wanna stay strong either. i dont know what to do.. all i really want is to be with you.. but its not gonna happen huh? if it isnt, tell me it isnt. on second thought, dont. it'll just shatter me.
~This is for Eternity ♪ at 10:12 PM